Every day I become more and more amazed watching my little girl. My favorite part of the day is waking up to her smiling face. She is full of smiles in the mornings. She is not an early riser (lucky me), but when she does get up she just smiles and talks. It breaks my heart to think I might have to miss or cut short this part of the day in a few weeks. Some of you know the struggle going back to work I am having. I did have a meeting with my boss today and the rest is in God's hands. Please be praying that God's will be done. I want to do what is best for my family.
Another thing I sit in amazement at is when I think back to a year ago. Every year Eric asks me what I want for Christmas. I have never been one to want presents. I enjoy giving much more than receiving. Last year the only thing I wanted was a baby. He would get so annoyed with me because I wouldn't tell him any material thing I wanted because I truly didn't want anything other than a child of my own. I dreamed and hoped to be pregnant by Christmas last year. I had these grand dreams of a special way I would tell the whole family Christmas morning. Several weeks before Christmas nature told me that dream would not come true. I was crushed and did my best to smile through Christmas when all I could think about was the Christmas I had planned wasn't going to happen. As I look back to a year ago I smile. God in is perfect timing did give me my Christmas wish I just didn't know it yet. Little Claire was conceived the week of Christmas (I'm sure you really wanted to know that, lol). God answered my prayer just not in the way I thought it should be answered. Now I am so thankful God answered my prayer the way he did. For so many reasons. Her birth was perfect timing. I may have been overdue and anxious, but God knew what he was doing. I feel so blessed this year. I don't want or need a single thing in the world. I have my perfect baby girl and look forward to sharing her first Christmas with her.
Her new favorite thing is to play in her jumperoo. She loves this thing and will jump and jump and the next thing I know she is asleep. She isn't quite long enough to touch the floor, but a pillow does the job nicely.
